I have boundary issues with men. Or maybe that's not quite right. To have boundary issues one must have boundaries in the first place, right? But I disappear into the person I love. I am the permeable membrane. If I love you, you can have everything. You can have my time, my devotion, my ass, my money, my family, my dog, my dogs money, my dogs time-everything. if I love you, I will carry for you all your pain. I will assume for you all your debts( in every definition of the word). I will protect you from your own insecurity. I will project upon you all sorts of good qualities that you have never cultivated in yourself and I will buy Xmas presents for your entire family. I will give you the sun and the rain, and if they are not available, I will give you a sun and a rain check. I will give you all this and more, until I get so exhausted and depleted that the only way I can recover my energy is by becoming infatuated with someone else. This is how it's always been. I am not proud to say.
From Eat, Pray and Love by Elizabeth Gilbert
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