You Cannot Change What You Do Not Acknowledge

" Change is the essence of life. Be willing to surrender what you are for what you could become."

Patience Is A Golden Virtue Right?

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What You See Is What You Get...

May 31-June 6.............
ARIES: You’ve been holding steady but things are definitely getting weird! When life reaches any extreme you become so used to it that it starts to feel normal. Others are starting to wonder about you. And that’s OK because maybe someone will step forward and say, ‘Hey, by the way – what’s up?’ You’re already half way there. You might as well come completely unglued and find out what’s really at the bottom of all this insanity. When you do it will be a relief and the end result will bring you back to center.
TAURUS: you have so many blind spots. And fooling your self is easy because you think you’re right about everything and you have no respect for anyone’s opinion but your own. The problem is that you desperately could use some outside input. It’s hard for those close to you to point anything out to you because they have either bought into your illusions or you have them by the balls! I have no idea what it will take for you to have an epiphany, but it would be good if you could at least recognize how much you need one.
GEMINI: You pride your self on your accomplishments. If you examine your reasons for choosing the path you’re on you may find that they have absolutely nothing to do with what your heart would go after if it knew it had a choice. There’s a huge cliff in front of you and you may need to jump off it. Ultimately it’s all up to you. To get clear about what needs to happen right now ask your self what brought you here and consider that it may have less to do with you and more to do with what someone else wanted.
CANCER: If you knew what people were saying behind your back it would bum you out. Your efforts to do the right things are backfiring. It’s your belief that you need to continue to work tirelessly toward something but the truth is if you let someone else handle it, it will become what you want it to be. Step outside your box and ask your self what you’re trying to prove and why do you need to prove it? It’s not like you to be wound this tight. Something needs to snap and it would be better if it wasn’t you!
LEO: If you are a little nervous it would make sense. There are a lot of reasons why you should be and the more you try to hide this the worse things will get. The need to keep things secret is a huge problem in your life and always has been. At this point if you don’t come to terms with your dark side it’ll ruin what would otherwise be a hell of a good time. Grow up a little and stop using all the knowledge you’ve accumulated to rationalize away issues that need to be dealt with differently for your life to improve.
VIRGO: You have to make decisions that will work for you. Being swept away by your feelings or flattery from other people is a problem. Be discriminating about who you relate to because right now it would be easy to settle for less. You do not need to baby-sit for anyone, nor is it your job to put up with all of their past life trauma. If they’re not working on their problems there’s no way you can take all of that on. It’s time to choose your battles. Try saying, ‘No thanks. I don’t need this’ and you’ll feel much better.
LIBRA: You have all you can do to stay on top of things. It’s exciting to have this much going on even if sometimes you feel like you’re not in control. There’s a lot of love flowing into your life. Half the reason you’re out of control is because you’re walking on air! Sudden opportunities to take off on the spur of the moment will pull you out of your everyday life. Don’t be too practical to up and leave if you have the chance. Any experience that allows your heart to open further will enhance everything else you do.
SCORPIO: Being at the mercy of things you never thought you’d have to look at is a big deal for you right now. You aren’t as sure of your self as you used to be. Whatever has created cracks in your visions of perfection has thrown you for a loop. Keep in mind that it isn’t a bad thing to not know what’s going on. When you’re in the place of not knowing anything can happen and anything can be OK. Consider it a blessing that the walls are coming down. When they finally crash you will see that you are better off without them.
SAGITTARIUS: There’s a feeling of dissatisfaction coloring things. It’s because you’ve been trying to be something that you’re not. Others have set standards that you’re trying to live up to. Nothing you do makes them happy. On the other hand you have other options and there are possibilities to try something new or walk away from this. Being ‘good’ has its merits but not when it interferes with your freedom of expression. The truth is you need to be your self. If that’s not OK with someone else, it’s may be time to leave.
CAPRICORN: You have it made in so many areas you shouldn’t be complaining. Because you constantly have to take your ‘Evil Twin’ into account, what would otherwise be fine, isn’t. Looking outside your self and your relationship for greener pastures is a strong theme. As you well know nothing you want can be found outside of your self so keep your attention there. There may be opportunities to fool around or make a fresh start, but before you jump keep in mind what you’ll have to give up if you do.
AQUARIUS: You believe so firmly that you’re right. It’s fine if you do but others are coming from a completely different perspective. You also think it’s your job to change the way they see things and you can’t. There’s a big discrepancy fowling things up and a tacit refusal on your part to even recognize it. There are also many things that you are totally in the dark about. If you knew what they were you’d realize that you’re definitely not on the same page with someone close. If and when you wake up, you’ll be shocked.
PISCES: You are feeling ambiguous about so many things. What you have tried to do as far as improving your situation goes was a good idea at first, but now you don’t know what to do. Step back from everything - and that includes people who don’t know how to act their age. In any emotionally based situation keep in mind that you’re the grown-up. If you are clear, others will be clear. And whatever you’re hoping for will come to pass as long as you remember what you want and don’t allow people to play games with you.

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Tendril Tapestry

Sometimes...

Sometimes When We Touch

You ask me if I love you
And I choke on my reply
I'd rather hurt you honestly
Than mislead you with a lie


And who am I to judge you
On what you say or do?
I'm only just beginning to see the real you


And sometimes when we touch
The honesty's too much
And I have to close my eyes and hide


I wanna hold you til I die
Til we both break down and cry
I wanna hold you till the fear in me subsides


Romance and all its strategy
Leaves me battling with my pride
But through the insecurity
Some tenderness survives


I'm just another writer
Still trapped within my truth
A hesitant prize fighter
Still trapped within my youth


And sometimes when we touch
The honesty's too much
And I have to close my eyes and hide


I wanna hold you til I die
Til we both break down and cry
I wanna hold you till the fear in me subsides


At times I'd like to break you
And drive you to your knees
At times I'd like to break through
And hold you endlessly


At times I understand you
And I know how hard you've tried
I've watched while love commands you
And I've watched love pass you by


At times I think we're drifters
Still searching for a friend
A brother or a sister
But then the passion flares again


And sometimes when we touch
The honesty's too much
And I have to close my eyes and hide


I wanna hold you til I die
Til we both break down and cry
I wanna hold you till the fear in me subsides

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The words to the pix up top are not very readable but should be read so you may got to this site as I cannot seem to crispen up the wordz..Zen

Watch Out Fo Dat Snake In Da Grass!

Look who I found hiding under my truck! I tried to hold him but he hissed at me!

Kinda reminded me of my last boyfriend! The one with da stinger!

Snake Lover

Two-Lips Closed Then Exposed

Blogger Always Gets It Backwards....this teaches me patience!

First Coat....

B.A.A.D.D......what the sheep said after becoming addicted to benzos

Googly Eyed Sheep
BENZO ACTIVATED ATTENTION DEFICIT DISORDER:
This is how it goes:I decide to wash the car but first I'll go through the mail. I lay the car keys down on the desk, go through the mail, discard the junk mail and notice the trash can is full. OK. I'll just put the bills on the desk and take the trash out, but since I'll be going near the mail box anyway, I'll just pay these bills first. Now, where is my checkbook? Oops. There is only one check. Oh there's that coke I was drinking. I'll look for those checks but first I'll put the coke further away from the computer or maybe in the fridge. I head for the kitchen and notice my flowers need water. I set the coke on the counter. UH OH,THERE ARE MY GLASSES! I've looked for these for days! I had better put them away. I get some water. Aaaagh there's the T.V remote IN THE KITCHEN. Better put it in the family room. I'll never look in here for it. I head for the flowers, splash some water on the flowers and floor, throw the remote on the SOFA and head down the hall trying to figure out what I was going to do?
END OF DAY: The car isn't washed, the bills are unpaid, the flowers half watered, the coke is still sitting on the kitchen counter and I can't find my car keys and there is still only one check in the check book. I know I was busy all day but I can't figure out why nothing got done???
Well I think I'll check my e-mail now. Aaagh. HELL.... WHERE ARE MY GLASSES!!! Of course, this NEVER happens in my house because I'm a VIRGO!!! I finish everything I start...irregardless of missing limbs or glasses....
Benzo Bozo Brain

Trespassing The Line Of Sanity

I've been on line all day.....
I can't seem to get to the front of the line...
The line keeps moving....
But I don't get any closer to the beginning.....
It's like getting left back in school......
This 2 steps forward and 5 backward....
Is starting to turn to 3 steps forward and 2 back though....
Could I be making a slow progressive twostep to sanity or to inanity or onto a bridge to humanity?
I can't be sure....I sure feel different today....like I am alive again after a long dark sleep....I'm a babbling brook again....and I played piano and sang and it twas for me not for anyone else!
Rip Van Wrinkly

Maam.................Me Arse

The fateful word that signalled the passage from Chickhood to Womanhood with a BANG-ZOOM-IN-DA-KISSER! One day you are a Miss and the next you are a Maam...Hey lady...wasup?
Had I known my boobs would fall that fast I would have taken the proper precautions like um..wearing underwear but hey..who knew?
I mean..I worked out...I was still attractive....I didn't dress frumpy...what the hell gave me away? Why did they stop carding me? Was the face I saw in the mirror the same face they saw or did I need a new prescription for my specs? Was I getting all wrinkly and arm-flappy before my thyme? All that I know is once the Maam hit it never left....I waited for the day when it would turn back to Miss but ya know...I'm still waiting and ya know what....
It's okay!..... because I'm a Babesia Babette of Epic Proportions!
A Tantalizing Multi-talented singing gardening CHICK with SPUNK....
W-O-M-A-N! Thas me.......
They Still Whistle When I Strut Mah Stuff!
Spam Carlin

Invincible

Today's Artistic Find

It Might Have Been Worse

"Most certainly I was powerless over alcohol, and for me, my life had become unmanageable. It wasn’t how far I had gone, but where I was headed. It was important to me to see what alcohol had done to me and would continue to do if I didn’t have help.
"At first it was a shock to realize I was an alcoholic, but the realization that there was hope made it easier. The baffling problem of getting drunk when I had every intention of staying sober was simplified. It was a great relief to know I didn’t have to drink any more."

Sorry Seems To Be The Hardest Word

In honor of Elton John's 60th Burfday!

What have I got to do to make you love me

What have I got to do to make you care
What do I do when lightning strikes me
And I wake to find that you're not there


What do I do to make you want me
What have I got to do to be heard
What do I say when it's all over
And sorry seems to be the hardest word


It's sad, so sad
It's a sad, sad situation
And it's getting more and more absurd
It's sad, so sad
Why can't we talk it over
Oh it seems to me
That sorry seems to be the hardest word


What do I do to make you love me
What have I got to do to be heard
What do I do when lightning strikes me
What have I got to do
What have I got to do
When sorry seems to be the hardest word

Virgo The Um Virgin

Virgo is the Sixth sign of the Zodiac. It heralds the end of Summer and nearing of the harvest. The origin of its name has become lost over time but among European and Middle Eastern mythology, Virgo has always been a symbol of fertility and a representation of the production of crops. Even in prehistoric times, this Zodiac Sign was perceived as both a mother and a virgin. According to some astrological sources, Virgo's original symbol was the Sphinx...mythological poser of riddles...and, indeed, those governed by Virgo are prone to question, turning inward in order to seek larger meanings about causes and purposes in life. Some sources maintain that Virgo began as The Great Mother, a Sumerian Corn Goddess, while in Egypt, she was Nidaba, Goddess of Grain, whose harvest begain when the Moon was in her constellation. In medieval times, Virgo was associated with the Virgin Mary. However, in most depictions, Virgo holds sheaves of wheat or an ear of corn, emphasizing her role as a Goddess of Fertility and Agriculture. Occasionally portrayed as bearing flowers, this image may be a reference to Mi, her Babylonian name, which means "cluster of flowers." Virgo natives seek complete realization of the mind, being logical, practical and methodical with an intellect which subrogates the instinct. This is an unassuming Sign, but one which rules hard-working individuals who are prepared to serve unflinchingly and give of their hearts. Those born under the Sign of Virgo should strive to expand their perspective beyond details...to see the larger order and underlying pattern of creation. Thus, those who accomplish this will know the goals worthy of service and learn how to temper intellect with reverence.

The symbol...or glyph...of Virgo is said to be connected to the Immaculate Conception of the Messiah and marks out the letter "M" or the letters "MV" (for "Maria Virgo" or "Virgin Mary"). It is generally assumed to have originated from the star Spica found in the constellation of Virgo and is indicative of female virginity. In Vedic Astrology, this glyph is perceived as being comprised of three vertical lines and another which crosses and joins the uppermost portions. These three lines are said to be representative of the powers of nature acting within the media of time and space, symbolic of action, inertia and harmony. The additional line which crosses and joins is believed to create tension...the struggle of the Spirit in its natural evolution.

Also known as the Sign of the Craftsman or Critic, Virgo is Negative in polarity (as are Taurus, Cancer, Scorpio, Capricorn and Pisces). The general characteristics of Negative Signs lean toward introversion and prefer to draw upon personal resources rather than look for external stimuli. Such individuals are naturally more receptive, sensitive and nurturing than are the Zodiac Signs of Positive polarity (Aries, Gemini, Leo, Libra, Sagittarius and Aquarius). However, Negative Signs are also likely to be much more cautious, retiring and standoffish than their Positive counterparts with a tendency to keep personal feelings under tight control. Taurus is the most introverted of the Negative Signs (with Virgo a close second).

All Zodiac Signs governed by the Elements of Earth and Water are considered to be Feminine in nature. Thus, Virgo (ruled by earth) is considered Feminine (as are Taurus, Cancer, Scorpio, Capricorn and Pisces). Feminine Signs are traditionally conceived as being more receptive and less active than their Masculine counterparts which are ruled by the Elements of Fire and Air (the Zodiac Signs of Aries, Gemini, Leo, Libra, Sagittarius and Aquarius). Feminine Signs focus primarily on the emotional and material world with particular attention to sensitivity and depth of feeling. Feminine Signs are said to be noctural or night-oriented. Therefore, the term "feminine" should be viewed in the same light as the Yin (or dark) Polarity of the Tao.

Virgo is the natural ruler of the Sixth House of the Zodiac, commonly referred to as the "House of Service, Work and Health" and known in Vedic Astrology as the "Evil Fortune." It signfies the health and strength of individuals as they develop along the path to adulthood, including the personal respect and degree of care a person gives to their body. This House also governs individuals who fall under the care of others but are not relations or kin...servants and employees, for example. It deals with what happens when an individual is called upon to render service and care. It is also the House concerned with family pets and all domesticated animals...particularly the health and well-being of such creatures.

The Sixth House is associated with work ethic and the measure of personal integrity as useful and productive citizens of the world. Within the Sixth House is found the rhythm of an individual's day...the side of a person that decides how he or she would like things to transpire over the coming twenty-four hours...the side which plans a personal schedule. In short, the Sixth House presides over the manner in which humankind functions and is governed by the Planet Mercury (also Planetary Ruler of the Third House).

The opposite sign to Virgo is Pisces. From Pisces, Virgo can learn to let go and swim with the current, freely utilizing the inherent fertile imagination. Thus, can Virgo natives learn to accept human imperfections.

Positive Traits: modest, shy, meticulous, tidy, reliable, practical, diligent, analytical and intelligent

Negative Traits: fussy, hypercritical, harsh, conservative, overly-fastidious, overly-conventional, finicky, a perfectionist and a worrier

Likes: lists, hygiene, order, detail, precision, wholesomeness, health foods and perfection (even in minutiae)

Dislikes: squalor, uncertainty, health hazards, sloppy workers and anything deemed to be sordid

Spiritual Goal: To learn to discriminate between destructive criticism and simple wisdom

Spiritual Correspondence: The Virtues

Apostle: Philip

Prophet: Micah

Anatomy: Rules the hands, abdomen, intenstines, spleen and central nervous system

Corresponding Tarot Card: The Hermit

Associated Countries: Brazil, Switzerland, Turkey, Greece, Uruguay and the West Indies

Associated Cities: Athens, Corinth, Paris, Boston and Heidelberg

Animals: All Domestic Animals and Solitary Animals

Watchword: Service

Keynote: Purity

Physical Manifestation: Crystallization

Mental Manifestation: Discrimination

Motto: I Wish To Give

Quote: I Analyze

Aren't You Just A Little Bit Curious?

Far beyond the transparent domed roof of the Constellation Chamber, here in the Astral Gallery, the stellar patterns circle in everlasting orbit, waltzing to the music of the spheres. Each tine of the twelve-pronged star, whose nucleus resides in the center of the marbled floor, points the way to a circular window of crystal, which focuses upon a specific astrological sign.
Ah...you are wondering if this is a true science or simply a concoction of mumbo-jumbo? One thing is certain, if you discard the ancient occult art of astrology completely, then there is no romance or poetry within your soul, for this is an art with a tradition of mysticism and ancient lore which reaches back for thousands of years.
While it cannot be denied that an early accurate history of astrology is not available, and it is impossible to state with any surety exactly when the technique was first practiced, it would not be beyond the realm of possibility that the earliest astrologers plied their skill in the plains of Chaldea, centuries before the emergence of Christianity. It may certainly be traced to Babylon in the First Millemmium BC, but the Zodiac used during those antiquated times was very different...containing eighteen signs. The first Zodiac comprised of twelve signs appeared in Babylon and Ancient Greece between the Fifth and Third Centuries BC. However, not all the same animals were used as are employed today and not always in the same time periods as we know them in the modern age. The word "zodiac" itself stems from the Roman "zodiacus," which in turn is derived from the Greek "zodiakos," and literally means "circle of animals."
For many a long year, the secrets of this art were closely guarded, but when the ancient civilizations of Egypt, Babylonia and Chaldea fell into decay, their sciences (among them, the rules of astrology) passed to the Greeks and Romans. There, even in a sceptical and material age, the most enlightened of men continued to believe in the message of the heavens. "Astrology" is, after all, a Greek word..."astro" meaning "star" and "logos" meaning "words." In short, "star words" or "star messages."
Later, the Arabs became the greatest practitioners of astrology and even today, it plays a very important role in the daily life of Mohammedan nations. When this doctrine of astrology finally arrived in Europe from Arabia, kings, emperors and princes of the Church all began to harbor an implicit faith in the influences of the stars and it was far from unusual for a rich man to retain his own domestic astrologer who would advise and forewarn him.
Many famous astrologers of those and later times are also celebrated for their achievements in other sciences. Regiomontanus, Bishop of Ratisbon, for example, who reformed the calendar; Johann Keplar, who discovered the fundamental laws on which the solar system is built; Tycho Brahe, the gifted Danish astronomer; Jerome Cardan, physician, philosopher and mystic; Pierre Gassendo, one of the greatest mathematicians in history; Philip Melacthon, pioneer of the Reformation; and John Flamsteed, famous astrologer and the first Astronomer Royal of England.
Indeed, in 1675, it was Flamsteed who selected Greenwich, England, for the erection of an observatory. The reason for his choice? When he made his mathematical calculations during the 1670s, the meridian running through Greenwich was the geodetic equivalent of no degrees of Aries...the first of the Zodiac signs and the beginning or spring point. London was then the world's greatest city and the center of learning. Greenwich lies on the zero degree of longitude and, from that line, the meridians are numbered. Also from that line, comes "Greenwich mean time," upon which time in every corner of the Earth is based.
Astrology does not compel, it impels. Because it divines only the human soul itself, indicating the road along which your moral and mental qualities are likely to propel an individual, astrology can be an unfailing signpost to the future. Astrology can aid in overcoming the potential pitfalls in an individual's path, just as it can provide fair warning of the opportunities and luck that are to come along the way, making a person alert and ready to seize at every chance with both hands.
Humbug, you say? Hogwash, you mutter? Maybe. Of course, you are free to turn away now and leave this domed tower, if you so choose. An exit may be found in the south wall to transport you back to the Towers of Penumbra and there are no forces at work to restrain you, with one possible exception...the glimmering pointer which beckons you toward the window where your own particular astrological sign is shimmering. Beyond that portal, secrets are waiting to be revealed: personality traits, portents of fortune, specifications of an ideal partner...and more.
Abraxas, the wizened, wizardly Steward of the Constellation Chamber seeks no converts but, in his papery-thin voice, does whisper invitingly:
"Aren't you just a little bit curious?"

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Totally Awesome Site.....

Astrologially Bent

The Back Woods of Penumbra

While reading the astro site I took my Virgo reading from this morning I FELL literally into this site with no URL....it freaked me out....it is titled Charter Of Restriction and I have not entered it as of yet... I am ready to but I will post what I read first as I stumbled upon it....

So, traveler, it would appear that you have meandered into the BackWoods of Penumbra. This is hardly a safe place to wander. Who can say what might be lurking there in the shadowy undergrowth...perhaps it would not be to your advantage to find out.
I daresay you happened upon this mysterious and restricted area in error.
I am sure you were searching for one of Penumbra's many towers. The knight and his trusty steed keeping watch from above will guide you toward the more secure ground to be found in the Castle.
Best that you seek his assistance soon, before he draws his sword and has your head for trespassing. Do not ponder too long though. As the saying goes: He who hesitates...
But I am sure you know the rest.........
Here I go.....Curious Georgette.............

It Is Quite Rare To Find A Similar Pea You Feel Comfortable Sharing Your Pod With!

No, not your IPOD silly!!

Virgo Woman In Love

Virgo natives tend to move in a controlled, thought-oriented and grounded fashion. These are individuals who are ruled by the mind and will invariably give their love slowly and with immense seriousness. They dislike overt displays of emotion and grand gestures of attention, which causes them to retreat within themselves in order to escape. Since those governed by Virgo are prone be controlled souls, their emotions also fall into the same category. Once the heart of a Virgo has been captured, then the loved one becomes a receptor to all the feelings and passions that this individual has been keeping inside. On occasion, even more expectations and conditions may be piled onto a partner simply because that mate is now holding Virgo's cherished feelings and dreams. When in love, natives of this Sign are devoted, loyal and nurturing. Virgo possesses high self-expectations and equally lofty expections of those who are loved. They adore strength...particularly that of the dignified and quiet variety. They will tend to...and take care of...loved ones with a diligence and focus since they consider it has become their "job" to do so. The condition of being in love must make sense to those governed by this Sign. In short, it has to fit into their idea and ideal of what life is all about. Once an individual has managed to slip into one of Virgo's dreams or plans, then the Virgo native will embrace that picture for ever. These are souls who will go out of their way to make a union work and spare no sacrifice in keeping that union alive. In terms of physical intimacy, those ruled by Virgo require a certain setting...a definite layer of built-up trust and privacy...in order for their passionate side to emerge and be ready to play. Cleanliness will always be of paramount importance, as will the right conditions. By nature, Virgo individuals are shy, particularly when it comes to sensual needs, but a potential partner should not be fooled into thinking there is no fire lurking below the surface. With a trusted mate, subjects of Virgo can become as devoted, focused and exploring in the romantic arena as they are about making their life work. They have a totally uninhibited potential for physical intimacy, which can be almost lustful, while still retaining a sense of purity. Virgo is notorious for high standards in selecting a partner, but once those standards have been met, then pure sensual pleasure will be the reward.

Those who fall under the jurisdiction of Virgo have the reputation of being cool, undemonstratative and even frigid in their attitude toward love. However, this is something of a misconception. Just as the calmest waters can be the deepest, so it is with Virgo. These natives need to express their innermost emotions in an almost self-sacrificial manner, which is why they give so much of themselves to a cause that interests them...or a way of life that they feel is the only way. Thus, if that way of life should be a lifelong committment, then they will be totally dedicated to making it a success. These are souls who can be extremely withdrawn, especially with strangers. In essence, they only appear loving to those who know them best. Virgo requires a partner who is tranquil...one who provides a solid foundation for happiness. This Sign is earthbound in its moral outlook, which is not to imply there is no spiritual side to the Virgo nature, merely that its subjects do not float or drift. Virgo individuals are rooted...deeply rooted...in their fundamental beliefs. Hence, they are unmoved by more aerial or light-hearted spirits. It is impossible to flatter these natives by way of charm and they cannot be overcome by show, or overwhelmed by admiration for the flashy or glitzy. These souls know what they want, both in love and in life, and will pursue the person of choice with much determination. In short, the Virgo nature is one that truly shines...generous in unmaterial things while remaining careful in every other respect. Virgo natives will be happy only with the one partner they believe to be ideal in every way and they are willing to wait until that individual comes along.

Those governed by Virgo prefer partners who are neat, clean, punctual, trustworthy, hard-working and as near perfect as possible. This may be something of a tall order, but Virgo would not normally ask for one iota more that he or she is willing to try to give or do for a mate. These are souls who find it virtually impossible to either understand or tolerate anything...or anybody...who fails to live up to personal potential, or at least strives very hard to do so. Virgo natives are willing to lend assistance, but a partner must be open to following suggestions and teachings...even if such advice may sound more like criticism rather than loving and constructive guidance. Those ruled by this Sign are quite pleased to hear favorable comments directed toward them, but must be certain that such compliments are not falsely given, otherwise the relationship is sure to suffer, creating more harm than good. Despite the tendency of Virgo to deliver criticism, its natives are generally unable to accept the same. This may seem unfair, but it should be remembered that those born under this Sign believe themselves to be seriously lacking in the area of perfection. Indeed, they are inclined to be so totally aware of their faults that they can stand very little criticism from others and still maintain any satisfactory degree of self-respect. A potential mate should allow the Virgo individual to be of service in order to avoid feelings of disappointment on Virgo's part. Subjects of this Sign like to work and serve others in a constructive and meaningful way. Any person who would aspire to a long lasting union with a Virgo native should take great care not to allow him or her to feel unneeded or unnecessary, for this will certainly result in disaster and an end to the relationship.

When it comes to long term commitments, life with a Virgo individual must be orderly for the relationship to flourish. Some Virgo natives may live in a messy house with overflowing laundry and unorganized shelves but deep within, there will always be a sense of strict control that is directed into some facet of life. These individuals are caretakers and need to feel comfortable enough to slip into that role. They are prone to nag and criticize, but usually have their mate's best interests at heart. Virgo is not adverse to taking on more than his or her share of work and once committed, will stay committed. Natives of this Sign are time-oriented and crave schedules. They are unable to tolerate a partner who is constantly late or one that has a scattered life energy.

Perhaps the most apt description of the Virgo female is "discriminating." It is probably no accident that the glyph for this Zodiac Sign often depicts a woman bearing a sheaf of wheat, for separating the wheat from the chaff is something that the Virgo woman does best. For example, she will want to know the details of any partner's daily activities and the most recent project undertaken. More than anything else, females ruled by Virgo demand action rather than just words. Relatively soon in any relationship, she will seek a commitment, which includes a ring on her finger and cash in the bank for that summer residence in the country. Of all the Zodiac Signs, the Virgo woman certainly cannot be trifled with and it would be a grave mistake to underestimate her or fail to include her in every plan made. This female is perfectly capable of setting goals and overcoming any odds to reach them. Unlike some of the other Signs, this female truly knows what she is all about, and only if she can be accepted as a full partner will she become a wonderful asset...one who is always there when needed. Virgo females also need to know exactly where they stand. She is not necessarily adverse to a brief romantic fling, as long as she is made aware of that fact from the very beginning. The most enlightened of Virgo women are those who have developed both their intellectual and spiritual sides. Such females are extremely powerful, magnetic and charming individuals...ones who can possibly sway an entire nation, if not the whole world. A major problem common to women governed by Virgo is their tendency toward hypochondria. They are so centered on being perfect that they are inclined to imagine ailments and disease whenever they feel the slightest bit out of sorts. In truth, however, these females rarely require medicine at all and usually live long and useful lives, often appearing many years younger than their actual age. In the romantic arena, this woman is often more responsive to the mind rather than the body, with a tendency toward being passive rather than active. She seldom smolders with passion, desire or longing and will certainly never worship the ground any prospective partner walks on. Essentially, this is a female who plays it very cool.

Positive Aspects Of Virgo In Love:Nurturing - Devoted - Uninhibited - Caring - Loving - Sacrificial - Quiet - Considerate - Protective

Negative Aspects Of Virgo In Love:Cold - Calculating - Judgmental - Compulsive - Tendency to be Undemonstrative and Overly Critical

Romantic Style:Modest - Fastidious - KindVirgo natives are genuinely modest, which makes for truly charming souls who often seem to play hard to get while not deliberately being so. Though devoted to those they love, Virgo individuals would be wise to keep a tight rein on their tendency to nag. This is a Sign that is prone to set high standards, both on a personal level and with regard to others...particularly loved ones. Hence, those ruled by Virgo are frequently beset with disappointment. In addition, Virgo is something of a fussy Sign with an orderly nature that is both prim and proper. This extends to all areas of life and a sudden spurt of raw and naked emotion can be rather upsetting to those governed by Virgo, breaking their life rhythm. These natives are capable of white-hot passion, but everything must be exactly right and proper...precisely neat and clean.

Change Is Inevitable

Cutting free from the known entity is both enticing and scary. Balanced precariously between two planets heading for the month of June when change is inevitable makes me excited yet fearful...quakity in the pit of my stomach. They say fear is good. You are either paralyzed by it or woken up by it. My feet are clay today. My hands cling to the familiar for stability and balance. My nose stuck in a book, my hands caressing my dogs fur. The sun baking my skin. The silence in my home healing me. For such a talkative and excitable girl people who know me don't know that I absolutely need silence and peace to rejuvenate myself. There are few I can BE with and be silent. It is a real test for me and a real indicator of being with the right person. If there is a supreme comfort level between us then nothing needs saying. Each will instantly know what the other needs in the moment.

Life has blessed me with many teachers. Some remain in my heart forever. Some seemed to play games with me when I didn't know the rules. It frustrated and irritated me yet it also intrigued me. I was curious. What brings lasting peace and satisfaction when everyday life disappoints even if it is filled with accomplishment, awards and financial rewards? Have you had enough yet? Did you know that you STILL needed to learn How To Live before you could awaken to a simple, happy and uncomplicated life? We must learn to live as Peaceful Warriors with wisdom, joy, compassion and humor instead of seriousness, knitted brows, questions and problems. To gain experience by doing, not thinking, and not asking for answers to questions that have no answers. The world is a puzzle that you need not make sense of to thrive in it. I always thought I needed answers and solutions. Where do you merely survive and where do you thrive? Where do you find excitement, challenge and satisfaction? Pleasure.

Basically we're all fools together ..a few people know it and others don't. "Doing" takes your mind off of your many questions. Eventually your own answers will come to you.

Be patient as you learn or re-learn how to be a human being.

Whether you have a proper teacher or not depends upon what you want to learn.

The whirled is a school but life is the only real teacher. It offers many experiences but the lessons are hidden. Until you SEE the world clearly with clarity you cannot turn knowledge into wisdom.

Gathering information from outside yourself fills us with useless knowledge. We must learn about ourselves but first we must EMPTY our tanks. Everything you'll ever need to learn is within you. The secrets of the universe are imprinted on the cells of your body but you must learn to read this wisdom to realize simultaneously through head, heart and instinct.

This comes only from direct experience not bewks.

Life is a mystery. Choose to be either a serious jackass like most or a humorous fool like the warrior.

Body wisdom is your first lesson. Where are you today, right now?

Right here, right now.

In the moment.

Sunami-zen

Life and Lessons

"Life Is Not A Private Affair. A Story And It's Lessons Are Only Made Useful if Shared."
Dan Millman from The Way Of The Peaceful Warrior

How Do You Know You Haven't Been Asleep Your Whole Life?

Enlightenment

" Enlightenment consists not merely in the seeing of luminous shapes and visions, but in making the darkness visible. The latter procedure is more difficult, and therefore, unpopular." Carl Jung

Lessons Taught With Love, Patience And Forgiveness Schtick!

Lessons are learned everyday in the moment. The lessons laught by kindnes, love, friendship and forgiveness seem to stick the best. Schtick around longer or forever. In my year of learning I have observed and learned many things from many people as I become more aware of myself, my actions and other's reactions to my actions. Many people feel that it is "always about someone else"...I will stick to my stance in that you need to "make it about yourself...speak up....use your voice".....it is self-fulfilling to think the worst of yourself...my ex-husband used to say over and over in a comic(hiding the pain and reality of course) I'm A Loser. Well...I could not hear it much longer and eventually he became what he repeated.

Judgement of another is very complicated in that we find certain things about other people that make them "not our cuppa tea." It doesn't mean they are not "someone elses cuppa." So we may judge as an observation not a criticism. Just in our mind know..hmmmm..that person is really NICE but I don't jive with them.

Some people we begin loving and leave as Toxic to us...but down the road maybe they re-enter our life and there is no problem. This means that we both have matured in that time and the little things that bugged us no longer do because the tremendously endearing and comforting things about that person outweigh their shortcomings that you once found so HUGE. The anger you once felt has no place in your life as it is replaced with acceptance and forgiveness and of course, love. This love you have for that person radiates in the core of your being and nothing seems to put it out. This magnet you feel pulling you back full circle from when you came.

Possibly the words that were branded in your forehead that wounded you so badly by another will be kissed away like an eraser clearing the slate making way for true love. Humility is learned in separation and suffering. The ego is not attractive if it is swollen and humongous....the people pus must be let out gently with kindness and love to make way for the healing. The super knowing between two people that have lived the same pain and walked the same path is a gift to be sure. It may take time to really open that gift fully but the gift is in the patience and the excitement of the waiting.

People that try to teach you with anger,coldness and sharpness are not good teachers.

People that try to find answers for others instead of looking within themselves are not good teachers. They mean well of course....

Love is the drug for me. I can feel it around me. It is invisible as it wraps it's arms around me at night as I lie alone resting and healing and waiting for that magic kiss.

Sunamizen

Passion

" Passion is but a prelude to years of gradual unfolding..."

Some people mate for life. Perhaps their love affair starts with infatuation, passion and eroticism. Eventually it gives way, if healthy, to a more stable companionship. Not all couples pass this transition period intact, no kidding. Those who do find a new mode of relating to one another. Devoted lovers find that minor faults can be accepted. MINOR....key word. At the same time, they find acceptance in spite of their own inherenr shortcomings and insecurities.

Mature love is patient, selfless, generous, considerate and kind. Nurturing. The lover becomes more important than the self. In love, we find transcendance and a unity that is unattainable alone.

Many sages speak out against romantic love. Can it be that they have never felt it or they have been bitterly disappointed themselves? Individuals should know themselves well. If they are meant for love, they will know if and when.

Ultimately, the other is divine and divinity dwells in the other. Through love, one can come to know the beauty of unity and wholeness. Without the female, the male element is static and sterile. Without the male element, the female is boundless potential without a catalyst. Through unification, we find selflessness, purity and divinity.

The Tao

My Body Is Liquid Fire Today

I think I would probably beat myself up for dying.

Most probably. Cuz I didn't get enough done before....

Killed myself setting up the damn darn barn sale now too ill to run it.

Medication change making me nauseous and weak and didn't sleep a wink. Need to raise dose tonight to sleep before I am able to begin taper off.....guess I better get a vomit pan by the sofa.

Friends on way to help out.

I guess you do know who you can lean on after all....without any Sex strings.

To Good Friends Who Show Up When You Need Help!

Sunami-On-Fire

Somebuddy Special Found My Smile!

Now to stick it back on my face....
What kind of glue shall I use?
Gorilla Glue? Elmers? oops...No Whey-Elmers has moo in it....
This morning I will use Brahms and Michael Brecker Jazz Sax...
Massage and Ice Packs....
Public Radio and Organic Breakfast Blend....

Listening to friends talk about Breckers death...he really looked well they said.....up until the day he died he was walking and talking in the hospital....and then he just said That Was It....It's Over...It's Gone.
Just like the day Pop said that to me about us in December after I spent Xmas with another man...because he didn't ask me to spend Xmas with him because he never celebrated holidays....or birthdays...I liked to celebrate those days....I didn't know how to NOT make those days special and fun?

Peace and Solitude Nourishes my brain right now.....
Fills me back up when James Tayler sings I Don't Want To Be Lonely Tonight...Mike Brecker on sax....Herbie Hancock.....Pat Metheny...
But I'm knot lonely, I'm just resting...the Suzy Meadow-morphosis Is ocurring as I learn to Let Go gracefully without claws...without beating myself up for what I could do nothing about or control....for not getting everything done I need to...because my body can't keep up with my brain...right now.

Learning how to not let memories paralyze me with pain and sadness.....
Memories dance in our heads....taunting us.....reminding us....could we have done better?
Shudda...Cudda...Wuddas....
Dancing As Fast As I Can....
Rainy Day Girl Coming Back From The Dead

Where Does Your Smile Go When You Can't Seem To Smile For Awhile?

It's As If...
I Left It Somewhere....
Maybe Someone Else Has Borrowed It...
And I Am Wearing This "I'm Okay" Mask..
For Now...Until I Find My Damn Smile...
Where I Left It...With My Joy...I Want It Back
Maybe I Left A Part of Me Somewhere Too...
Because..For What's Left Of The Life Of Me...
I Can't Seem To Find Anything These Dayz...
Maybe Whoever Has My Smile Will Return It To Me...
Evidentually....It's Really Okay To Share...
Parts Of Me For Awhile...
I Got Other Parts..
Later Tomater

Perhaps There's Truth In This Illusion

Sex is Knot Love!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

A very good male friend taught me this lesson and I would like to impart or share it with the men (and women) out there that THINK sex is love. Sex IS a form of expressing love and intimacy but in my life I have had enough sex without love and after having sex with love I now know the difference.

The men and women out there that think having sex the first time you meet someone is okay need to learn a lesson. This closeness you feel is NOT love...it maye FEEL like love but it's knot!

Spend some thyme with the object of your affections without sex..cuddling is OKAY...massage...TLC but keep secs out ofthe picture...if you find you LOVE spending time with this person THEN you can gently enter the physical arena.

My good friend told me that SEX gets in the way of true love and he is right.

Learn to love yourself....then you can love another....then when you do have sex it will be MAKING LOVE.......

Please all you Impulsive leg humpers....

Can you hear me now? Touch my soul and feel my inner spirit and then maybe you may touch my physical being.

Sunami Celebates

Confusion and Fury

Emotion Surges:On Resentment

I have found a website called Digital Emotions that I thought you all might enjoy. See the excerpt down below and URL linkage.

I have been experiencing surges of raw emotion for quite some time since quitting drinking.

Yesterday was my first drink TRIGGER day...I had to take a look at it today and identify the emotions that swept over me...they were of frustration with people, abandonemnt and alienation, going above and beyond once again affecting my health, anger at a person for not coming through on their promise, resentment at a person for making me feel (or I made myself feel) that the relationship was becoming very one-sided...in other words...that I was always doing things for the other person who is a bit selfish and dependent and the other person was doing very little back to compensate which to me is the balance necessary in a friendship...but again, maybe I expect too much of slower moving type B people who do not go quite at my pace..but I have been lauded over and over again at my jobs for my sense of time urgency attention and knowledge...in other words I know that something HAS TO BE DONE in a certain time frame and I adhere to that no matter what. To my demise sometimes it seems. I certainly see that I need to be with a person of similar values (a mate I mean) because if I am with a person who is very lackadaisical and lazy I know it won't work. I will end up resentful because I will be doing all the work. I also know that I will need to be with a man who loves to cook because in my life I have been the one that always cooks. I need someone who jumps in and cooks from time for me! And of course, he will have to be musically inclined and computerific....a writer, reader and a communicator. Someone who says what they FEEL emotionally and expresses themselves...I cannot pull words from a stone anymore. I do not want to have to "figger someone out" again.

The picture I have posted is of resentment above.....

"God grant me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change, the courage to change the things I can and the wizardom to know the difference."

This is taken from the website:

The concept of emotions has been somewhat vague for me throughout my life. I have, during certain moments of my life, experienced feelings and emotions that I could not quite define. There's been times, I've claimed I was cultivating certain emotions, yet my thoughts and actions betrayed such claims. I've come to understand that emotions and feeling can be very subtle, fleeting, very elusive at times. Still, there are those times when emotions become all consuming and powerful.......sometimes dangerous.
I needed something that would enable me to better define, and understand what I was feeling. Using my computer as a medium, I have over time compiled images to help me express my emotions, my thoughts, and my actions. I realize that many will view these images, and feel something other than what they are entitled......and that's okay. What I would like to suggest, is that you peer deep within these images, allowing yourself to feel......really feel. These images will ignite some type of emotional response, provoking many moving thoughts within you.

http://www.newportnet.com/digitalemotions/coverpage.html

Knowledge Iz Power

The Evening Post

An Interesting Topic to Discuss

A stranger was seated next to a little girl on the airplane when the stranger turned to her and said, "Let's talk. I've heard that flights go quicker if you strike up a conversation with your fellow passenger."
The little girl, who had just opened her book, closed it slowly and said to the stranger, "What would you like to talk about?

"Oh, I don't know", said the stranger. "How about nuclear power?"

"OK," she said. "That could be an interesting topic. But let me ask you a question first. A horse, a cow, and a deer all eat grass, the same stuff. Yet a deer excretes little pellets, while a cow turns out a flat patty, and a horse produces clumps of dried grass. Why do you suppose that is?"

The stranger thinks about it and says, "Hmmm, I have no idea."

To which the little girl replies, "Do you really feel qualified to discuss nuclear power when you don't know shit?"

Morning Wood With Pasque

Excerpts from Celebrating Single and getting love right.....on codependent toxic relationships and how to change your choices or make better ones in the future....
RED FLAG EXAMPLES.....
" It's a red flag when dates tell you terrible stories about their ex-wives or girlfriends and take no responsibility for their role in the failure of the relationship." Jane, 46

" A classic red flag for me is lying. If a lie is done to protect someone's feelings, it's a social grace. If it's a profound lie and digs into the fundamental basis of your relationship, it's unforgivable. I hate being betrayed." Vince, 43

" I think it's important that a man I meet love his parents. (Not too much though). Because someone who loves his parents is able to love you. It's a danger signal to me if a man doesn't have any friends and doesn't get along with his family." Rebecca, 39

"Look at people's relationships with others in their lives. Who are that person's friends and family? Are they close to their siblings or parents? I'm close to a lot of people. I've stayed in touch with friends from a long time ago." Ken, 39

" My problem is becoming involved with men who are not emotionally available, when there's no getting a committment of any type. The red flag has two parts. The first is the guy's part, if he's evasive about the future. And the second part is my being sensitive to the avoidance because I want that guarantee or certainty of the future before I invest myself in the relationship. I have to be constantly aware of my goal:
To be in a healthy, lasting relationship." Patty, 35

"I've been in a relationship where the sex was great and the relationship was very bad. The woman was into drugs and things I never did. Her attitude was, there was a guy around every post. I was one in a chain of people. The excitement drew me into it. In every one of my relationships, I can look back and say, "I knew there was a problem." Ray, 50

The list goes on.....just be AWARE when you meet someone and LISTEN to everything they say. I have a mind like a steel trap...I never forget anything that is said or done.
Then listen to everything they DON'T SAY!!!!
Love and Peace
Relationship Detective

The Miraculous First Fire Red Poppy

Nothin' philosophical today but a quickly snapped photo that came out quite unusual in it's composition. The shadow of the flower contrasting with the flower itself and the natural spot on the rock behind it looking somewhat like the sun! It was unbelievable to upload it and see this awesome work of natures art...I did nothing but grow it and take it's elegant picture.

This simple thing is but one of millions of things people miss in their frantic lifestyles today.

It is what I fight against...this tendencly to MISS the simple beauty.

Look what a flower did for your day......

Love...

Sunami's Perennial Zoo