Reflections of A BeePeeDee

" I hate you don't leave me"...is a book on Borderline Personality Disorder. If I listed all the abbreviations for the disorders (SOME SELF-DIAGNOSED) I have I'd run out of ink....but, hey...at least I'm knot in denial.
Let's see they diagnosed me w/PTSD because I was abused but I believe it is BPD...I have MCS/EI/PTSD/RA/FM/BPD/ALCOHOLISM/CODEPENDENT/MSG ALLERGIC/OCD/CUDD BE BIPOLAR LEMME SEE...MEBBE PARANOIA "ARE ALL MY FRENDS PLOTTING AGAINST ME?"....I MIGHT HAVE TRUST ISSUES AND I MIGHT ALSO GET MAD AT MEN A LOT..LEMME SEE WHAT WUDD YOU CALL DAT.."ANTI-MALE-OSIS OR ITIS" I DUNNO "ITIS" MEANS INFLAMMATION AND OSIS MEANS THE OPPOSITE OF OASIS....I CUD BE INSANE BUT MAYBE THAT'S MY GAME....MEBBE DATS MY SAVING GRACE...BECAUSE INSIDE OF ME IS A SPECIAL PLACE...I HAVE THE SPECIAL ABILITY TO "LOOK INSIDE A PERSON AND REALLY SEE". DO I LIKE WHAT I SEE? MAYBE YES MAYBE NO...BUT WHO AM I TO JUDGE i'M JUST A REGULAR JOE..WELL NOT REALLY...I'M ALLERGIC TO EVERYTHAING...I WONDER WHY THIS IZ? IZ IT A PUNISHMENT FOR BEING ABUSED OR IZ IT JUST MY LOAD TO CARRY AND DEAL WITH OR IZ IT JUST WHAT IS MEANT TO BE? I DO KNOW THAT WHEN I REALLY "ZEE" I SEE CLEARLY....IF ONLY I COULD JUST "BE" INSTEAD OF "ZEE" I MIGHT BE COMING UP DAISIES....
I'M HAVING SEPARATION ANXIETY I MUST ADMIT...
MY TWIN BROTHER FIGURE IS HEADING OUT FER A BIT...
IT'S SOMETHING HE IS FEARING YET I KNOW IT IS THE BEST...
BECAUSE IN THE END WE ARE ALL "PUT TO THE TEST"...
TO "LOVE WHO WE ARE WITH ALL OUR IMPERFECTIONS AND FLAWS"
BUT THE GREATEST LOVE IS LOVING OTHER'S MESSY LAWS....
SO I HAVE "FAITH" THAT LOVE IS WHERE IT IS ALL AT...
IT HAS NINE LIVES LIKE THE FAMOUS BLACK CAT..
AS I BABBLE AND I "FEEL" WHAT I KNOW IS COMING CLOSER...
I GET A GLIMPSE AT MY TRUE SELF...
QUITE A LIBERAL "DOSER"...
HEB YA MET A GROT PARDELUILL?
ONLY DUTCH PERSON WILL KNOW...
THAT A HORSE IS A HORSE......
AND HAS NO DESIRE TO BE A BULL..
SO STAY TRUE TO YOUR IDENTITY...
CAUSE IT'S ALL YOU GOT....
EVEN IF YOU PEEPS CAST ASPERSIONS...
LIKE A WORN OUT POT...

GEE WILLIKERS BEAVER...I BEEN ALONE TOO LONG...
MS MANY DISORDERS