It's So Easy To Slip...

A song I love. However, I found that either hanging out alone or with friends that didn't have addictions helped me keep on track. It's sooo easy to slip if you hang around with practicing addicts when you are a recovering one. It's starts really slowly with a little bit here and a little bit there and before you know it...you have fallen. You give yourself permission to have something because everybody else can have it or is dumb enough to have it is more appropriate. I've done it. Paid the price. Physically and emotionally. Guilt and disappointment in myself. I don't need SLOW self-esteem....or NO self-esteem I need to GROW self-esteem. So when somebody asks me if they can buy me a drink...I say no, but I'll take the six bucks....
Won't Let Go
(Of My Morning Java)