I have gone from 2mg klonopin to .25 rather quickly (WAY too quickly due to allergy) according to the tapering protocol so today i got the answer for my OCD thoughts that race through my head at times uncontrollably and my short fuse... irritability besides the pain factor stuff.....
Obssessive Thoughts
Anyone else had these and has anything helped? They spoil everything like even watching tv my brain just repeats over and over I dont know what to do I'm at screaming pitch I cant relax at all I dont get them in dreams. My brain seems normal again.
Re: Obssessive Thoughts
Yes, I also have that happing to me. I know it might not sound like it makes any sense, but I've been trying really hard to keep busy, even when I feel I can't, just to keep my mind busy also. I have days though when I just can't seem to do anything and on those days, it's worse with my thinking things over and over. I have this strange thing I call, 'the never ending song'. It's in the back of my head and without realizing it, I'm constantly moving the back of my throat and tongue. But in my head, the tunes of the ends of songs keeps playing over and over and over and it just won't stop. I know it sounds silly but when I realize it's been going on for some time, I get upset with myself and tell myself I'm going to stop it, just to find later that I've been doing it again and again. Through the whole thought process of the ends of songs, I realize I've been moving my tongue way in the back as if I'm half way singing these song endings to myself. The result is, by the end of the day, the back of my tongue and my throat muscles are all sore. If I keep telling myself to stop it, an hour later, I realize i've been singing 'stop it, stop it' in the back of my head and my throat. There's just no end in sight right now for me...eeek!Anyway, I do hope my strangness helps you somehow. I know my situation and the things I think about might be very different from yours, but I think either way, our brains are trying to get better, even though all this wierd stuff.I wish you well in your healing process. God bless, Sheri
First, a brief recap: I'm very sensitive to withdrawal and learned to do it slowly (10% cut in the beginning threw my body into such shock I had terrible insomnia for about 4 months and couldn't cut further. I learned I get to the same point just as fast doing very small tapers. I use 100 ml of water. I put 15 mg of temazepam in to fall asleep and 15 to fall back asleep at 3-4 a.m. when it wears off I wake up. By this method I have VERY VERY slowly titrated out more and more. By a few days ago I was taking 30 ml out of each dose, so I was at 21 mg. Last night I decided to take 32 out of each dose. By my calculations and the spreadsheet, this is 0.6 milligrams. I did sleep okay, but I feel so wired and overstimulated this morning. Its okay but also pretty unpleasant and I've been snapping at my boyfriend but he understands its withdrawal. My question is......
Okay so besides MCS attacks I am tapering benzos and have had this OCD stuff and irritability...
I am way overdoing work because it has to get done somehow....
I must rest tonight....I just read online that Baking Powder contains Sodium Pyrophosphate the same thing that was in the Jason toothpaste that got me and I had tried to use cheap baking soda to brush my teeth and blew so evidently I bet that the cheap baking soda has some baking powder in it to cut it..Giant Brand...containing phosphate which I am allergic to....OMG.
I will TRY arm and hammer brand next..what a friggin' life!
I gotta rest....
SuzyQ
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