Did you ever feel like you wanted to pull someone towards you yet at the same time you pushed them away AS IF you didn't deserve to be loved for some reasons.....
My disability...my past.....my inner turmoil and unrest.
You really really wanted so badly to be loved and held but you were so afraid to trust someone again because in the past they let you down? Drove you nutz with their inability to be there for you emotionally....mentally.....financially.....as a best friend.
This is not from a book i read....this is from me.....
The last time I trusted a man was a disaster....the minute he knew "What I Had" he ran....despite the enormous love he had for me or so he said.....or so he thought. Cynical me.
I'm not really rehashing...maybe a little..but this is why you might catch me playing push me pull you....I'm scared that's all.....
To Trust Again
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Sounds a (little) like your scraping your bowl and finding some resin (hash) but if it needs to come out then that means it still needs work. Peace...
~~scraperic~~
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